Day 296 - Cravings

 CRAVINGS

Prompt - Cravings : Write about craving something

Defined as an intense, urgent, or abnormal desire or longing.  Craving is not addiction, lacking the latter's physical imperatives.  The addict cannot help themselves.  But a craving?  That's there to be controlled.  Or indulged.

I get cravings.  Less so that I did when I was younger, and now they head off in different directions.  This afternoon, watching Edinburgh play in Parma, I had an intense desire to see the boys score one more try and clinch the bonus point.  Which they duly did in the final play of the game.  But was that a craving?  Or just a moment of passion?  I'd say the latter, for I was fully conscious that such moments come about from the heat of watching 'my' team, and then dissipate.  It's not a craving to want to see the team you support do well.

But almost every night, as I work through the final wee jobs before going up to bed (or, more likely, this PC!) I find myself wanting chocolate.  Even if we've had some during the evening.  Sometimes I manage to ignore this and leave the craving behind.  But most nights it ends up with something sweet going into my mouth.  Maybe a bit of chocolate, depending on what we have available at that time.  Maybe several bits.  Or, more frequently, if there's nothing already open and waiting, I'll dig out a spoonful of chocolate spread from the jar and slurp it all down.  If I'm managing to be good it can just be the one.  There are too many nights when the craving has it's way and the one becomes four!

Nowadays there's little else I crave.  I am satisfied with my life.  There are things I want to do, things I enjoy buying.  Sometimes I come close to craving objects I've seen in shops.  But it rarely lasts.  Most of my desires nowadays are for books and music.  Twas not always so.

When you're young the cravings are stronger, more varied.  I had a craving for particular cars.  Or to go to some place I hadn't been before.  Or for women I'd seen.  I managed to own a couple of the cars.  I got to some of the places.  But most of the time the craving for a woman wasn't enough to overcome my shyness and lack of confidence.  Cravings don't provide a boost, just a nagging itch.

It's good to be relatively craving-free.